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chronicpaint ([personal profile] chronicpaint) wrote2008-08-27 12:12 am

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I feel so alone right now. Like I'm trapped behind glass. Cut off. I can't do all the work. The Catch-22. If I don't do the work and try to connect, I end up by myself and feeling like this. But, ultimately, if you have to do all the work to maintain, then what kind of friendship is it? Is it even worth saving?

[identity profile] ciddyguy.livejournal.com 2008-08-27 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
In this case, if it's a chronic thing, then it's time to dump it/them and find new ones who are willing to reciprocate every now and then. True friends are like that.

I know some of my isolation is by choice, but also I need to step up to the plate some too and even when I do, the other person needs to do the same.

[identity profile] chronicpaint.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
I tend to be isolated by choice sometimes too. But when I want company, I want it NOW ;)

[identity profile] dturing.livejournal.com 2008-08-27 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
Ugh! I find myself in a similar hole right now. Maybe it's time for a new phase in life. Although I think at some point, when you can let go - you move past the feeling alone - and move on.

[identity profile] chronicpaint.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I'm working on making peace with it. Have been for a long time. ;) Not always very good at it

one is never alone

[identity profile] mindel-73.livejournal.com 2008-08-27 11:16 am (UTC)(link)
Yes I am your "new-age wingnut" friend, but I believe that this is true. It might not feel that way, but reaching out as you have to those around you is a sign that you know that there are people out there who love you.

Look behind you and you will find that there is indeed an angel on your shoulder. Close your eyes and hear that angel speak. Look forward and see a new path is waiting where "work" won't be work and all things will be exploration. You are meant for great things Stephen.

Re: one is never alone

[identity profile] chronicpaint.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
I just wish I knew what it was and how to make it happen

[identity profile] monkeyman.livejournal.com 2008-08-27 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I feel like that about people sometimes. But there can always be other stuff going on, too ... sometimes friendships just drift apart and then back together again.

While the show is crazy, I'm pretty crazy, but if you need to hang out, let me know.

[identity profile] chronicpaint.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Deej. I'd like to hang with you more

[identity profile] kaleekolai.livejournal.com 2008-08-27 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
*huggles* I wuv you Peep-en!!

Catch 22s suck. With friendships, if you're finding it just as stressful to maintain as it is to feel alone, that right there may point to your answer.

*more huggles*

Just dis-identify man. >;)

[identity profile] chronicpaint.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
I think if I dis-identified any more, I'd cease to exist

[identity profile] kaleekolai.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
I do not think that word means what you think it means!

[identity profile] chronicpaint.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
That's because the word doesn't mean ANYTHING! ;)

[identity profile] kaleekolai.livejournal.com 2008-08-30 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Touché!