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chronicpaint It's official. My doctors confirmed it. I am cancer free after five years. I am cured. Still the ongoing issues with my leg, but the prognosis hasn't changed. If something happens, we fix it, but I am functioning really well, and not in a lot of pain. Don't have to see either one of them for a whole year.
I treated myself to a cab to get to writing group and teared up once we started moving. It was like I could finally release the breath I'd been holding for five years. Every minute of pain and fear and loneliness and sickness was worth it.
Nine years since my diagnosis. And I'm finally really alive again.
And from the sublime to the ridiculous, I have decided a career in porn is not for me. Thanks to all who expressed a desire to see the finished product, but not gonna happen.
Part of it is self consciousness, but mostly, it's a desire to keep that part of myself to myself. To keep it as something special I share with my lovers. If my technique and "moves" are in the public domain, then they somehow stop being "mine" Though the boy whose idea it was and I are planning on playing as soon as we get the opportunity ;) But in private and not on film.
And I wrote another almost 1800 words tonight, finishing chapter five and bringing my word total total to 22,291
I treated myself to a cab to get to writing group and teared up once we started moving. It was like I could finally release the breath I'd been holding for five years. Every minute of pain and fear and loneliness and sickness was worth it.
Nine years since my diagnosis. And I'm finally really alive again.
And from the sublime to the ridiculous, I have decided a career in porn is not for me. Thanks to all who expressed a desire to see the finished product, but not gonna happen.
Part of it is self consciousness, but mostly, it's a desire to keep that part of myself to myself. To keep it as something special I share with my lovers. If my technique and "moves" are in the public domain, then they somehow stop being "mine" Though the boy whose idea it was and I are planning on playing as soon as we get the opportunity ;) But in private and not on film.
And I wrote another almost 1800 words tonight, finishing chapter five and bringing my word total total to 22,291