Kinda random
Oct. 15th, 2008 11:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chronicpaintI have been meaning to post things, but have found myself kind of swept up in the day to day of my life. This is just sort of catch-up on some things
* Took some money I've made from selling some paintings (one buyer actually paid more than I asked for the pieces he bought) and saving and bought myself and Acer Aspire One netbook. Wanted to replace the old NEC Mobilepro 900 I was using when I'm at writing group. Did my homework and followed a tip from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
eumelosdrizzle and picked it up at Canada Computers on College St. Got a good price and it's a fantastic little machine. Wifi, Linux lite OS, webcam and OpenOffice. Perfect for my needs. Spend Monday at Tango Palace logged into their wifi, surfing and chatting. I highly recommend the machine for mobile computing.
* watched a great movie called Once Were Warriors on Saturday night. Harsh, brutal film that is tough to watch, but is ultimately uplifting, I highly recommend it. Be warned, there's some brutal domestic violence in it, so if you are sensitive to that sort of thing, steer clear. Also watched the first two discs of Mad Men Season One, which is great. So perfectly captures that era: women at home as docile, unsatisfied housewives, pregnant women blithely drinking and smoking, men drinking and smoking in their offices. Well written and Jon Hamm is so gorgeous it's unbelievable.
* Went todougoros and giamedin 's place in Hamilton for Thanksgiving. Wonderful time.
* And the election yesterday. Total waste of time and money for the country. I wonder about the psychology of why people vote the way they do. I wonder how I can not know a single person that voted Conservative, and yet they are forming the government again. Am I that out of touch with public opinion?
* I woke up feeling so lonely this morning, wanting companionship and affection. It haunted me all day long. And ended my day with a call from some asshole who works for one of our partner sites being a prick to me. Came home and watched So You Think You Can Dance Canada. Sweaty dancing boys always help. Yay for Francis and Nico.
* I broke down and messaged the guy that I sort of saw for a few weeks. I have felt bad that I just bolted and shut the door on him. He said that he told me clearly I was just a friend that he enjoyed sex with, that I was not husband material to him, but I don't remember that at all, or I wouldn't have thought something else was going on. So, either my memory is faulty, or his memory is faulty or both our memories are faulty. In the end, I'm over it and am fine with being friends. Just shows to go you that you have to be VERY, VERY clear about what is going on in your head when another person's feelings are on the board. I think we may be able to just be friends now. We'll see.
* Oh, and I forgot to mention. I was chatting with the twenty year old on the weekend, and rather than keep bottling, I told him that I had almost written him off over what happened. He was very apologetic and I believed him when he said that I mattered to him and he cared for me. And as soon as he said that, I was over it. I could forgive and move on. We can be friends now. And that's a good thing. Oh, and he then two days later broke up with the guy he had been seeing. And I didn't even think about being the replacement. I learned a couple of good lessons. The speaking up was good for me. I tend not to. I bottle. Which the new agers will tell you is why I had cancer. But it felt good to be open about what I felt.
Thursday tomorrow. Almost the weekend again. Sitting down for coffee with a friend tomorrow night, someone I've chatted with but never really hung out with in person. Then Friday a meeting about a project doing some freelance writing for a friend. Saturday, seeing someone I've gone out with a couple of times. Great sexual chemistry and compatibility, not sure yet about anything else.
Tired now. Sleep.
* Took some money I've made from selling some paintings (one buyer actually paid more than I asked for the pieces he bought) and saving and bought myself and Acer Aspire One netbook. Wanted to replace the old NEC Mobilepro 900 I was using when I'm at writing group. Did my homework and followed a tip from
eumelosdrizzle and picked it up at Canada Computers on College St. Got a good price and it's a fantastic little machine. Wifi, Linux lite OS, webcam and OpenOffice. Perfect for my needs. Spend Monday at Tango Palace logged into their wifi, surfing and chatting. I highly recommend the machine for mobile computing.* watched a great movie called Once Were Warriors on Saturday night. Harsh, brutal film that is tough to watch, but is ultimately uplifting, I highly recommend it. Be warned, there's some brutal domestic violence in it, so if you are sensitive to that sort of thing, steer clear. Also watched the first two discs of Mad Men Season One, which is great. So perfectly captures that era: women at home as docile, unsatisfied housewives, pregnant women blithely drinking and smoking, men drinking and smoking in their offices. Well written and Jon Hamm is so gorgeous it's unbelievable.
* Went to
dougoros and giamedin 's place in Hamilton for Thanksgiving. Wonderful time. * And the election yesterday. Total waste of time and money for the country. I wonder about the psychology of why people vote the way they do. I wonder how I can not know a single person that voted Conservative, and yet they are forming the government again. Am I that out of touch with public opinion?
* I woke up feeling so lonely this morning, wanting companionship and affection. It haunted me all day long. And ended my day with a call from some asshole who works for one of our partner sites being a prick to me. Came home and watched So You Think You Can Dance Canada. Sweaty dancing boys always help. Yay for Francis and Nico.
* I broke down and messaged the guy that I sort of saw for a few weeks. I have felt bad that I just bolted and shut the door on him. He said that he told me clearly I was just a friend that he enjoyed sex with, that I was not husband material to him, but I don't remember that at all, or I wouldn't have thought something else was going on. So, either my memory is faulty, or his memory is faulty or both our memories are faulty. In the end, I'm over it and am fine with being friends. Just shows to go you that you have to be VERY, VERY clear about what is going on in your head when another person's feelings are on the board. I think we may be able to just be friends now. We'll see.
* Oh, and I forgot to mention. I was chatting with the twenty year old on the weekend, and rather than keep bottling, I told him that I had almost written him off over what happened. He was very apologetic and I believed him when he said that I mattered to him and he cared for me. And as soon as he said that, I was over it. I could forgive and move on. We can be friends now. And that's a good thing. Oh, and he then two days later broke up with the guy he had been seeing. And I didn't even think about being the replacement. I learned a couple of good lessons. The speaking up was good for me. I tend not to. I bottle. Which the new agers will tell you is why I had cancer. But it felt good to be open about what I felt.
Thursday tomorrow. Almost the weekend again. Sitting down for coffee with a friend tomorrow night, someone I've chatted with but never really hung out with in person. Then Friday a meeting about a project doing some freelance writing for a friend. Saturday, seeing someone I've gone out with a couple of times. Great sexual chemistry and compatibility, not sure yet about anything else.
Tired now. Sleep.