Question #4

Mar. 4th, 2011 11:14 pm
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 Follow up question to How are you?: What could change to make your answer be "doing great"?

Hmmm. There are a couple of things that, I think, would upgrade things to great.

I would like some more solidity to the plans for the novel. It's all a bit hazy right now and I'd like to nail some things down. It would make it all feel more real to me, like I've actually accomplished something that's been on my list for a very long time. 

I'd like to be in a good relationship with someone who gets me, someone I can relate to and who's willing to give it a go and actually tell me so. Sometimes, it's a pain being the single one amongst a cabal of couples. They do things with each other, because that dynamic is familiar to them. I miss having a confidante, a playmate, a partner in metaphorical crime. 

And I wish I could find a fantastic apartment in my neighbourhood that I could afford on my own. I have a great apartment, but I can't afford it without a roommate. I'd kind of like to live alone again, but I won't make the change unless something fantastic shows up.

I'd like to be out of debt. I'm almost there, but all the while it's hanging over me, the possibility of losing control of it again. 

I think my "doing well" is actually pretty close to "doing great" I'm just hesitant to tempt fate and describe things in too glowing terms. Smells too much like hubris

on 2011-03-05 09:56 am (UTC)
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Lemme know if you need a muse/idea-kicker-arounder/writing-partner sort of person. It seems to be something I'm good at.

on 2011-03-06 07:01 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Sweet. I may just send you my new first chapter, get some vibes/impressions from you.

on 2011-03-05 11:22 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
When I hear someone say "doing well," I think of it as just a socially polite way of really saying "things are ok, but there is messy stuff that I won't dump on you now." Glad to know that you were just trying not to tempt fate! Perhaps the coming Spring will wash away the haze around your novel?

on 2011-03-05 11:46 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, for a long time, I was just hanging on, fingernails in the side of the cliff. And I think that went on for a long time after the actual cancer stopped. I was terrified of it returning, because it already had three times. I spent a long time figuring out how to be this new version of me, to feel whole in my body and not scared or ashamed of how I looked now.

So, "doing well" is a huge step up :)


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