Mar. 4th, 2011

Question #3

Mar. 4th, 2011 08:41 am
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How are you?

I am doing well. My oncologist graduated me a couple of weeks ago. I don't have to go back to see him any more. I guess I'm officially cured as far as he's concerned. Which feels pretty damned good.

My life has been very ordinary, which is, in part, why I don't post all that much. I feel like I'm pretty dull these days. I work, I go home and eat and watch TV and chat with boys and date sometimes. I hang out with friends. It all feels very run of the mill and I like that. After so much time in high drama and chaos, and then dealing with all the aftermath of high drama and chaos, it's good to feel boring. To feel ordinary.

I'm working on a new novel, just finished a first chapter and have an outline. Slow going, but I remind myself that the last one was the same way. Took a long time to find the groove, but when I did, it just flew out of me. I'm assuming that will happen again, if I clear the way and let it happen.

So, yeah. I'm doing well

Question #4

Mar. 4th, 2011 11:14 pm
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 Follow up question to How are you?: What could change to make your answer be "doing great"?

Hmmm. There are a couple of things that, I think, would upgrade things to great.

I would like some more solidity to the plans for the novel. It's all a bit hazy right now and I'd like to nail some things down. It would make it all feel more real to me, like I've actually accomplished something that's been on my list for a very long time. 

I'd like to be in a good relationship with someone who gets me, someone I can relate to and who's willing to give it a go and actually tell me so. Sometimes, it's a pain being the single one amongst a cabal of couples. They do things with each other, because that dynamic is familiar to them. I miss having a confidante, a playmate, a partner in metaphorical crime. 

And I wish I could find a fantastic apartment in my neighbourhood that I could afford on my own. I have a great apartment, but I can't afford it without a roommate. I'd kind of like to live alone again, but I won't make the change unless something fantastic shows up.

I'd like to be out of debt. I'm almost there, but all the while it's hanging over me, the possibility of losing control of it again. 

I think my "doing well" is actually pretty close to "doing great" I'm just hesitant to tempt fate and describe things in too glowing terms. Smells too much like hubris

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